Today I had a physio consult, one of three for the week. As it turns out this week I’m running three physios. Yes slightly crazy but it’s in a fine balance and perspective.

I don’t normally have a light bulb moment when I’m driving, I am fortunate enough to generally only drive in peak hour traffic so I’m ultra focused on the road. Today was a different story it was mid afternoon and was thinking it was time to write another blog entry.

What the hell do I write, I’m still torn about how much to share and what do I ramble on about. In the past week or so I’ve had to make some decisions, I need to have confidence, I’m not much of a risk taker. It got me thinking about my situation and some of particular areas or worry and concern. I thought to myself as I was waiting for a change of lights, that my perspective on this was wrong and if I only changed my perspective I’d be fine.

Sounds like a pile of crap really, something you’d read on some daytime infomercial (hey I’ve been home during the day a lot recently, don’t get me started on that!) any how more than just “turn that frown upside down” I thought in times when I’ve had to face my fears head on, when I’ve struggled and when there doesn’t appear to be a light at the end of the tunnel we need a change of perspective.

One of the staff at work suggested to me that I catastrophize things and I was a little taken a back and when I reflected on it, bugger it they were right.

I’m seeking help for it and I am making progress, but I believe over the past couple of months, possibly longer I have been dealing with depression.

As I’ve said I’m not much of a risk taker but sometimes you have to have confidence in yourself and your judgement and the rewards can be amazing. Sure you do have to accept your failings and you can learn and build from that.

So while it’s not always easy or possible to look at your current situation differently, it helps to and if you can’t do it ask your friends or seek professional advise.

It’s a personal growth thing and take a chance on yourself and you’ll be surprised where it goes. That said, you will not always find the surprise to your liking.