Six Months on – looking forward not back

I’ve always wanted to focus on here and now and the future and not the past.

It’s for this reason I chose not to announce to the world that the 15th of November 2012 marked 6 months since ankle surgery. While I celebrate my “focused stubbornness” has brought me through to recovery.

For one reason or another I’ve had to cling onto somethings that tied me looking at the past. While sometimes this can be helpful for me it really isn’t.

The physical and mental scares of this year is something I have an continue to seek support in working through.

As a friend put I’ve had “an interesting year in the┬áproverbial sense”

As another year starts to come to a end, it’s natural to reflect on the year that was.

For me it feels like a big negative, however being slightly more kind to myself having a literally crippling injury, mis-diagnosed treatment then delayed surgical intervention meant that I was always going to be a slow mover to recovery.

The frustration that caused I can’t begin to explain and quite frankly I don’t want to go back there. I’m focused on the positives, that I’m pain free, I believe I have full movement and in the past week I’ve been able to do short bursts of jogging/running.

Getting back onto the push bike and walking away totally chuffed at managing an easy first time 10KM ride, half of which was in a strong headwind, yet another important personal achievment. Something I did quite selfishly for myself.

My determination to not give in and continue to fight was evident as I only took one week off from personal training post op. It’s become evident from many people that I’m an amazingly passionate and committed individual and it seems I’ve helped motivate others along the way.

One thing I was ill prepared for was the challenges this experience brought. You don’t go through something like this without it being life changing. The personal growth I’ve gone through this year is a true testament and test of my character.

So while thinking about the what was can be nice, I’m more interested in planning and embracing tomorrow.

I’ve come this far, looking forward to what’s a head.

On ya bike!

It’s been nearly a month since I last blogged.

I’ve lost of bit of passion when it comes to writing, plus I’m still trying to figure out just how much of this journey I want to share with the world.

Be an interesting couple of weeks, got my feet in the sand and ocean a couple of weeks ago and last weekend got my push bike back from a service and went for a 10km ride.

I’ve not ridden regularly in over 7 years and when I tried a few years ago, I could barely get around the block.

On Saturday I went for a ride and chose to start going into a headwind (I figured a headwind was better at the start than on the way back)

Had no real plans on how far I’d go, wanted to work that out as I went along.

Thankfully I have a bike track near my house so I didn’t have to worry about traffic. Sure it’s just like riding a bike, but you do have to watch what your doing and remembering how to maneuver around corners etc is interesting.

My bike is a mountain bike with front suspension which is always a bit of fun.

In the end I figured a 10km ride total was a good start and I’ll build it from there.

Was great to get on the bike and head off and be out and about.

Next time though will fill my drink bottle more and make sure I wear my cycling gloves!