Overcomming mental challenges, as important than physcial challenges

So I’m back on the bike riding and back in the pool swimming after having to scale things back after pulling up sore after a ride a few weeks ago.

Tonight was stroke correction class and I always struggle to pump out the 60 minute session.

I’ve built crutches into the way I’m swimming, first some fins then a snorkel, ear plugs and nose clip.

Tonight I was focused on not using the snorkel at all and just pushing through. I’m still having a hell of a time sorting out my stroke and breathing and working out my pace.

I’m still tiring way to easily, but it is progressing.

While all the solo training I’ve been doing has been in a 25M lane by myself, stroke correction is in a 50M lane.

There is some sort of mental block I have and as soon as I hit over half way I seem to stop.

The challenge now is to mentally over come that and I will succeed!  I always said from the outset that this was a physical and mental challenge.

I love a good challenge and I’m enjoying pushing myself to levels of fitness, knowledge and strength I’ve never had before!

Community bike ride

So today despite the mercury topping 39.2 between 10:30am to around 1pm I took part in a community bike ride run by my local council as part of the SA Health OPAL project.

Last year at work a group of researchers came to  interview and test a year level of students. It was known as OPAL testing and I was curious what OPAL stood for.

Turns out it’s a obesity prevention and lifestyle program with the aim of being healthy now and for life. SA Health is working with a number of local council’s focusing on cycling and other health initiatives. A top idea as I’m back on my bicycle after many years off it.

The council is putting on a number of community rides and on-road skills rides. If you don’t have your own bike they can provide one and a helmet for use. They provide water, sunscreen and lunch, all for free!

The rides are conducted  by Ride-a-bike-right

I’ve done a couple of big rides but my knowledge of the basics is still lacking, plus my on road confidence is severely lacking. So I took the opportunity to get back to basics and it’s amazing what you can learn if your prepared to sit back and learn.

Being made aware of your surroundings and how to scan behind you, change lanes and take corners is important. My mountain bike has shocks on the front and while I thought they were adjustable I had no idea how to do that. It was also explained to me what changing them would do. The helmet I have is quite a few years old and there was a time when I couldn’t do up the chin strap. Now I’ve gone the other way the the helmet wasn’t adjusted correctly, glad to have that sorted.

After a brief introduction and chat we headed out to the carkpark and went through some basic skills. The instructors needed to make sure everyone could be safe as the majority of the ride was on street. Most of the people in the group hadn’t ridden a bike for many years and so they really were nervous. Really friendly institutors with a good sense of humour always helps.

Once everyone passed the basic skills test we headed out. By this time the air temperature was in the mid 30s so the ride was scaled down.

We headed to Centro Kurralta to access how cycle friendly it was and it was fairly good.

After that we headed back and had lunch and a de-brief. While the session was very much aimed at beginners I’m sure most people as I did came away with something. I’m not professing to be an expert but I’m probably a little more advanced than most of the group. That said it was very worthwhile going as I did get a lot out of it.

The session today covered the most basic of cycling skills, something that every cyclist will use on a daily bases and while you may not realise it. Knowing and using these basic skills will help keep everyone on the road safe, which is very important.

I’ve signed up for the on-road skills session next week, hopefully the weather will be a littler kinder 🙂

 

 

The balance of exercise

I’m feeling a little lost right now, I’m a little annoyed at myself.Not the weekend just gone but the on the previous weekend, I took myself away to prepare and re-group for a really frantic week at work.

I got a little carried away with one of my rides and I’m carrying a bit of an injury.

So I’ve had to take a step back this past week which is annoying.

It got me thinking though when I look at what I’m trying to achieve.

I’ve set myself a goal of doing a tri-athlon within the next year or so. Probably a mini to get a feel for it and then move up as my fitness improves.

The whole ideal in general is to increase the intensity of what I can and to always push that bit harder.

Last week we upped the anti in PT and it payed off.

I focus on doing three types of exercise group, one-on-one & on my own.

Traditionally I do Pilates & aqua (both shallow & deep) in groups and the one one on is my PT.

The on my own has so far been the bike and some walks.

It really is a nice mix of getting out and about with people but also having that time alone where you get to unwind and recharge.

The other balance I’m struggling to find right now is the work – life, work-life-exercise balance.

Again I’ll keep chipping away and having it all! being able to work full time and do structured exercise. I just need to do in incrementally.

Having the level of fitness I now have give me increased options and when I improve even more it opens up even more opportunists 🙂

Don’t take your ablity to exercise for granted

This past week has been a busy one for me work wise. At work we host the annual asia-pacific workshops for the IB, this year saw about 380 people attend.

My role is the ICT/AV lead and logistics co-coordinator, I get advised of the number of people attending and I have to allocate classrooms and ensure that each room is equipped to meet the needs of the workshop leader. I’m also responsible to ensure everyone can connect to our wireless network. Not always an easy job when you deal with locked down networks!

As always we have a few challenges and not everything goes to plan. Set up day was Tuesday with the workshops running Wednesday – Friday.
I was very mentally and physically active covering between 7-10km per day.
After being so busy and dedicated to supporting others I wanted to be totally selfish this weekend and was trying to work out what to do.

Today was one of my first “missed goal” days, I had planned to ride in a charity bike ride known as “The Big Red Ride” a ride from Glengelg to Outter Harbour, a distance of about 48km. Due to various reasons my training for this was off and I failed to register as I wasn’t ready.

So I’ve set myself new goals some very short term and some mid term goals.

Today I road from Haybrough “a suburb of Victor Harbour” to The Bluf, round trip it’s about 20km.

Tomorrow I plan to cycle from Harbough to Goolwa. I initially planned to do this as a straight road ride but I’m still building my confidence for on road riding and a large chunk of the ride the speed  limit is 80-100km. I’m not  familiar with traffic passing at 50/60 so was going to let that idea go too. I mentioned this concern to a work colleague yesterday and he mentioned that there is a bikeway part off road/shared/ on road that covers the same journey.

So that’s the plan tomorrow is to cycle one way, evaluate how I feel and either cycle back or catch the Steamranger train back

One way the journey is around 20km. So if I do return I’ll cover 60km for the weekend which will mean based on distance I’ll exceed the ride I didn’t make today.

The beauty of doing it “my way” is I get to pace it and can rest/stop whenever I please.

I’ve bought a second drink bottle cage for my bike and a new insulated drink bottle, so I’ll always stay well hydrated.

When I got back to my overnight accommodation today after my 20km ride I felt really good. Last time I tried to cycle in this area I really struggled. It’s  testament to the hard work I’ve put in the past year and the fact I’m now at a fitness level I’ve not had probably since my teens.

One thing I’m determined to achieve is to push forward and look into the future and where possible not look back too much in the past.

I recently had some counseling and about half an hour in I thought to myself “why am I here” we are talking about things I’ve moved past and talking about them isn’t going to help. Sure there are some things at the time I should have dealt with better and some things I would have done differently but the past is the past.

While it can be important to remember where you’ve come from, leaving the past in the past is also important.

Jumping topics again I’m trying to motivate a few people plus I take inspiration from a number of other people and sources too.

One of the best tweets I saw of last week is “don’t take your ability to exercise for granted” This little saying means so much to me, not only due to the set backs from last year but a reminder that not everyone affords themselves the time to get out and be active. I was thinking as I woke today that my plans for this weekly largely revolved around me getting out and exercising. Go back  a couple of years and you couldn’t get me out of bed before noon on a weekend.

Today as I cycled back enjoying a tail wind I looked around and felt to a certain extent in touch with nature. To the right I had the beach and the sea and while there was plenty of man made things to see, feeling the breeze and being out in daylight was just brilliant.

Mainly for safety I don’t cycling to music, and when I walk depending on where it is, is if I listen to music or not.

When I’m walking around my neighborhood I generally do listen to music, but when there are new surroundings or particularly on a beach walk I like to “connect” with the environment around me. Particularly on a beach walk I love to hear the sound of waves breaking on the beach. I have my Physio to thank for suggesting the “no music” as she likes to be in tune with nature.

I guess the thing I really enjoy on walks/rides is the lack of outside noises, I’m not listening to the noise of my car’s engine and I’m also traveling slower. It gives me a greater chance to take note of my environment. I find that during the week I walk around almost with blinkers on, oblivious to the outside world and surrounds and taking a moment to see what surrounds you. It’s this greater appreciation for the world around and the ability of being able to so freely exercise is something that I hold near and dear to me and encourage you to do the same.

So while I’m loving the fact that I can so easily get out and about, I will never take my ability to exercise for granted and I again encourage you to not take it for granted either.

 

 

 

On your mark….. set…. we’re swimming!

So over the past couple of months I’ve started to swim again.

Not very well I might add, but you have to start somewhere.

At the SA Aquatic and Leisure Centre where I hold a membership, I’ve done a couple of their stroke correction classes. Over the weekend  the centre posted an offer on their Facebook page about free one on one stroke correction for members.

It turns out the general manager Adam Luscome is giving back to the community and members and providing up to an hour of instruction free of charge.

Now this initiative isn’t just Adam getting the staff to provide services to members he’s doing the instruction himself. Adam is a highly successful and qualified general manager, he’s also very experienced when it comes to swim coaching, up to very high elite level.

Now I’m having all sorts of issues trying to do freestyle and backstroke, but Adam was one of the most amazing people I’ve had the opportunity to work with.

I expect at most I’ll get an hour of his time, the tips and pointers he has provided has been great. Each time he spoke to me I was concentrating, listening and taking in everything he said. This was a very rare and unique opportunity, I sure as hell was going to take full advantage of it.

He even videoed part of my swim and plans to email through some video analysis back to me.

Swimming is big on technique and I have loads to do an learn. But even though I’m still getting my breath back as I type this it’s partly due to the physical  exertion it’s also from the massive adrenaline high I’ve given myself.

What a great opportunity and one I am so glad I embraced!

Goal setting

So yesterday afternoon I had my first PT session for the year.

Today I’m proud at what I achieved but I’m incredibly sore.

It’s always been about pushing my body to see what we can achieve and yesterday was no exception.

Because of how debilitating the ankle injury of last year was I’m taking great delight in having complete free movement. As a result for some weird reason I’m now looking to jog and run. I was on the treadmill at the gym a couple of days ago and I wanted to ramp up my endurance training.

It was especially important to me as I’d spent the past couple of days driving back from Sydney and while I had to stay focused on driving I wasn’t able to do any structured exercise.

So with the treadmill I started at a base speed of 5.5km./hr then peaked at 3x 2Mins at 9km/hr. Now I’ve never felt comfortable on a treadmill, until really yesterday. I had my phone plugged into the treadmill playing music and supposedly recording nike+ data.

The music was on pace with my stride and it all came together. In the past I’ve looked down when on the treadmill, when you get up to 9km/hr you have to look straight ahead otherwise you’ll face butt the deck.

So I was thrilled with that and finished off with a few laps.Back to goal setting. I start this year so much stronger and fitter than last year. without major injury this year it’s going to be really interesting to see what I achieve with the team.

Initially I had planned to do a charity bike ride mid January “The Big Bed Ride” but it’s around 50kms the weekend of the biggest week at work for me for the year.

While I could probably complete the 50km ride, there is a high chance that I’ll pull up sore and it could negatively impact my ability to work. There is also a concern that once registered I have to compete, also the weather could be very hot and due to recent hydration issues I’m not prepared to risk it.

As a result I will maintain the goal of riding 50km in January but I will do it by myself instead of with a group pack.

In 2013 I aim to register as a 12km runner in the City Bay Fun Run, the question will be just how much of the course I run/jog/walk.

I have also been lap swimming a bit, this requires most of my effort as I’m very poor at it.

What this all comes down to is that over the next year or two I will be looking to complete in a tr-athlon. It’s a big goal but with gradual increases in training I’m sure I’ll get there.

I gave my PT time frame of 2 years for preparation, he thinks we may do it in a year. the main issue is that they are only held in summer.

I’m not worried I’m just so happy to be pain free and have free movement in my body and look forward to the year ahead regardless of what it holds.

2012 was a good year

I think I posted about this a few week ago, but I thought it worth while mainly for my own benefit to write again.

A good mate of mine Leigh mentioned me in one of his blog posts that Ian’s had an interesting year in the proverbial sense. It got me thinking was 2012 actually really that bad?

2012 for me started on a cruise ship in New Zealand and the year started off strong, I’d lost weight, found new levels of fitness.

Then all of a sudden my left ankle became a bit sore. Being the stubborn male I pushed through the pain until I had to limp out of a aqua class in severe pain.

My Physio treated it as a mild ligament sprain, but after a number of weeks and x-ray & ultra sound it was getting worse.

It was when my physio said I needed to go onto crutches alarm bells started to ring. Now I’m not going to write more about my ankle as that is now well and truly in the past and I’m at a point where I’ve moved past that.

All I’m wanting to do is say that despite the crap I went through with mis-diagnosis and then the change of specialist and the late surgical intervention. The run up and recovery from surgery was brutal.

Despite going into a fairly heavy depression when I had no idea what was going on with me and no idea of the path forward after the change in surgeon that all came together.

Through the post op rehab I had a couple of set backs and at one point I was almost inconsolable when I “lost it” when I got so totally frustrated at  my lack of ability to do the most simple exercises.

This is where I set the the goal of doing the 6km walk in the City Bay Fun Run.

Again I had set backs and my Physio was quite concerned about my ability to do the 6km. A month out from the race my surgeon was ready to pen paperwork saying I was medically unfit and I was still only part-time at work.

After two incredibly painful coritzon injections within 5 weeks, like a switch the pain was gone.

With additional help from my Physio my rehab continued to the point now where I completed the 6km walk and have moved onto other goals.

After the City Bay I felt lost I had no idea or concept of what lay ahead and I desperately needed to goal set.

A recent friend posted how she had climbed the Sydney Harbour Bridge and I have an overseas holiday  booked at the end of March 2013 and at that stage had no plans for Christmas.

I caught up with my GP and he was very keen for me to climb and signed the medical clearance paperwork.

Everything was going along fine until gastro hit out household.

Despite being very careful and doing almost everything I knew to do (Hydrolight, good nutrician etc) I became so dehydrated I was hospitalized.

A week out from the trip and I was gravely ill in hospital, to me it seemed unimaginable that driving to Sydney and climbing the bridge would happen.

The Saturday of what would be the week before we were due to leave I presented to the Emergency Department and began treatment. Saturday night I returned home to rest. By late on the Sunday I felt exhausted and weak and my body had started to shut down.

On the Monday morning I re-presented to the hospital and knew this time I was going to be in for a few days.

Unfortunately I was right. On the Tuesday morning after having a hellish night in hospital the nurse said that if I didn’t pick up my lunch time I was headed for a whole pile of scans as they were very worried about me.

Thankfully my body started to behave and while I didn’t need scans I was being very carefully monitored.

On the Tuesday I caught up with my doctor and he told me that discharge was going to be either tomorrow, but more likely Thursday.

I got my hopes up and it was quite disappointing when discharge was held back to Thursday. It was quite the bumpy ride and waiting the extra day was very much worthwhile.

On the Friday morning I visited my GP for advise as I was only 24 hour away from a big drive and I didn’t feel well enough.

I had an injection which I was told would help and my GP was keen an eager for me to continue as planned (I initially didn’t share his optimism)

Finally worked out that I was safe enough to travel and that I would write off the first couple of days in Sydney as rest days (turns out this wasn’t such a bad thing as the weather was terrible)

Did a number of things, but the stand out was the Bridge Climb and standing on the top arch of the bridge with only a harness holding me on, free to move around not behind a barrier was just amazing.

The climb I did is known as “The Bridge Climb” a climb of some 1,332 steps.

When I realized I made it to the top it really did validate to me that I had achieved everything and more that I set out for myself in 2012.

I feel blessed that I have such an experienced and dedicated medical team. The injury saw me meet and consult with a Physio I hadn’t previously seen and her treatment advise and support through out the year has been invaluable.

My personal trainers have and continue to be outstanding in their support and dedication to my goals.

My dietician has been a great help, particularly in some 11th hour advise of how to deal with the holiday and “getting back to normal”

I learnt a heck of a lot in 2012 and from that it was a good year.

I start 2013 without injury and today I’ve just upped the anti again with my interval training.

While 2012 was a good year, if I can avoid seriously injury I just wonder what the heck I’ll achieve this year as looking back 2012 was quite a year of achievements.

It’s going to be quite something looking back over this year to see what my team and I have managed to get my body to do 🙂

 

I climbed the Sydney Harbour Bridge!

A couple of months ago a friend of mine posted photos to Facebook showing that she had climbed the Sydney Harbour Bridge.

It got me thinking that it would be a nice way to end the year as climbing the bridge represents a great little physical challenge

I was a little apprehensive so organized to catch up with Marian and ask a number of questions. She was great in answering the questions I had and emailed Bridge Climb a few additional questions.

I chose to do a dawn “The Bridge Climb” a journey of 1,332 steps. a journey of 3 1/2 hours.

The climb started at 3:55am which meant I needed to leave my hotel a little after 3am. I had my alarm and wakeup call set for 2:30am and in true form my body woke up at 2am.
Got up had a shower and shave (have to look good for the photos!) had a light breakfast of fruit and a zero sugar energy drink. After a couple of problems with taxi’s I was finally underway and I arrived and bridgeclimb. Checked in and handed over the medical clearance form my GP was all to happy to sign.

The clearance form was completed prior to my hospitalization for dehydration. I consulted with my GP the day before I left for Sydney and he was very keen for me to complete the climb as planned.

Because the booking of climbs is not able to be changed inside of 7 days of a climb I had to make sure I was over 110% positive I could defiantly do the climb.

Keep in mind the morning of the climb, the same day a week earlier I was in hospital. So from hospital bed to the top of Sydney Harbour in a week, yes that was the challenge and that goal was achieved.

The waiting for entry in the climb prep area my nerves started to get to me a little bit. A little big of nerves is good. I knew this but it turns out my mother of all people was awake and messaged me on Facebook. She actually blew the social media blackout I did around the climb.

The blackout was two fold, one because I wanted to surprise people (I still told too many people, but for enough it was a surprise) the other reason was I wanted to make sure everything went well and there were no complications.

Obviously I’ve completed the climb and I’m fine.

So lets get back to what happens when they call you in to get ready for your climb.

You get herded into a muster room, you fill out a consent and waiver form, get breath tested and everyone introduces themselves and says why your climbing.

Most people were climbing as it was a gift. For me it was to celebrate loosing 30kg of weight and recovering from ankle surgery.

After the forms and you pass the breath test, it’s time to bridgesuit up.

The staff member did a great job at estimating my size and the bridgesuit fitted perfectly.

From there you get your waist belt which tethers you to the static line on the bridge, then you get your radio, head lamp and fleece and hanky.

I may have the order wrong but I’ll keep going.

Once your kitted out it’s now time to make sure you can climb a couple of test ladders to make sure your safe on the bridge.

I was very keen to do everything spot on and prove that “yes I could do this” Happy to report no problems!

After this the climb leader checked in with climb control advised the number in the group, the fact they had one lady who was pregnant and the fact I declared an ankle injury.

After that he got cleared and we headed out. We got attached to the static line and were asked to keep our voices down as we were walking above a residential area.

We then had a long flat walk to get under the bridge and then we had 3 ladders to climb. We had another staff member supervise this section and that was fairly intense.

Once up the ladders we were on the top arches of the bridge. From there we slowly walked up the top arch to the centre part of the bridge, through one of the maintenance cranes.

We stopped for many photos and I was a little emotional as the weather in Sydney had been terrible (hot, humid and heavy rain) over the past few days. Today the weather was perfect, cool temperature, low humidity and a light breeze.

I’ll never forgot the feeling of seeking the sun break through the clouds and light the buildings and landscape of Sydney. It was also amazing to see the cruise ship Carnival Spirit sail and dock at the Overseas Passenger Terminal.

Once off the bridge we had to gear down and head out to collect photos.

The photo collection period was painfully slow as there were three climb groups after photos. After about half an hour I got 10 photos (see links below)

A truly amazing experience, one I’ll never be able to explain in text.

If you ever have a chance to get to Sydney do climb the bridge.

They advertise that’s it’s the climb of your life and your not wrong!

Click below to review photos.

http://ianpilkington.smugmug.com/Other/Sydney-Bridge-Climb-Offical/27272193_QG32TB

P.s I forgot to mention the climb was done with no brace, tape or pain killers! Boo yeah 😉

Unplaned hospital admission

About two weeks ago in the middle of the week, I suddenly became incredibly sick.

By the Saturday morning I was so dehydrated I had to present to the Emergency Department to seek urgent medical attention.

It was clear to the staff I was so dehydrated that I required IV fluids. In the next 4 hours I had 3L of fluid via IV and then feeling better I discharged myself.

By the Sunday afternoon the benefits of that intervention had ceased and by Monday morning my body was feeling like it was cooking from the inside and various parts of my body started to shut down.

This obviously was quite a concern and quite frankly scared me. I did not appreciate just how shutdown my body was.

I re-presented to the Emergency Department where and additional 2L of IV fluid was given and then the decision to admit me for close monitoring was made.

I was an in patient for 4 days and in the first 48 hours the level of care and attention to my well-being was overwhelming.

I was focused purely on getting better and while I still shared a bit of what was going on with social media I cut all in person contact with family and friends I was incredibly ill.

Part of the problem was I lost around 6kg of weight in about 3 days which made me incredibly fragile.

The nursing staff charged with my care were amazing and I do credit my return to health to their care.

After the first 48 hours in hospital I started to so significant signs of improvement, although a bit slow. The first 24 hours was quite a concern for all involved.

One your body get badly dehydrated, the process the body goes through to “kick start” itself and get back to normal is a really rough process.

Because of the public nature of this blog, I’m not going to go into detail, however the road now traveled was quite the challenge and journey.

I now write this blog entry 4 clear days out of hospital and can say I’m feeling a lot better.

I have received detailed advise from my GP and Dietician how to manage my situation and have made a remarkable recovery.

I am so pleased that I have access to such a great health care system as for the first couple of days I was not in a good situation to take charge of my own well being.

I consider myself once again blessed by dealing with such amazing health care professionals charged with my care, doing their utmost for my benefit.

Words can not express my gratitude.

With that, it’s time to move on to a new goal and wrap up the year.

Merry Christmas all and hope you have a moment to reflect on the year that was and goal set and look to 2013 with optimism.

Six Months on – looking forward not back

I’ve always wanted to focus on here and now and the future and not the past.

It’s for this reason I chose not to announce to the world that the 15th of November 2012 marked 6 months since ankle surgery. While I celebrate my “focused stubbornness” has brought me through to recovery.

For one reason or another I’ve had to cling onto somethings that tied me looking at the past. While sometimes this can be helpful for me it really isn’t.

The physical and mental scares of this year is something I have an continue to seek support in working through.

As a friend put I’ve had “an interesting year in the proverbial sense”

As another year starts to come to a end, it’s natural to reflect on the year that was.

For me it feels like a big negative, however being slightly more kind to myself having a literally crippling injury, mis-diagnosed treatment then delayed surgical intervention meant that I was always going to be a slow mover to recovery.

The frustration that caused I can’t begin to explain and quite frankly I don’t want to go back there. I’m focused on the positives, that I’m pain free, I believe I have full movement and in the past week I’ve been able to do short bursts of jogging/running.

Getting back onto the push bike and walking away totally chuffed at managing an easy first time 10KM ride, half of which was in a strong headwind, yet another important personal achievment. Something I did quite selfishly for myself.

My determination to not give in and continue to fight was evident as I only took one week off from personal training post op. It’s become evident from many people that I’m an amazingly passionate and committed individual and it seems I’ve helped motivate others along the way.

One thing I was ill prepared for was the challenges this experience brought. You don’t go through something like this without it being life changing. The personal growth I’ve gone through this year is a true testament and test of my character.

So while thinking about the what was can be nice, I’m more interested in planning and embracing tomorrow.

I’ve come this far, looking forward to what’s a head.